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Loneliness

 I haven't experienced loneliness in a very long time.

 Even though I've been without my parents and two best friends for a while, and missed them, I didn't feel lonely as a result. My best friend and I didn't live in the same town. When I thought of him, as I do to this day, he didn' t seem "gone." He seems "away," as ever.

Far different now! With Harriet gone, I feel intensely lonely. I've been going to the dining room just to be around people. 

At dinner tonight one resident told me she she didn't know I could talk so much. With Harriet alive, and focused on her, I otherwise kept to myself.

I text with my three designated next of kin, which helps a lot. But I wish I had "a buddy" to fill in for Harriet.

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