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Winding down


I am close to a point where my comments here will become repetitive, and I don't want that. There has been a little of this already. So I will be writing less and less.

When I get Harriet's ashes and set up a memorial for her here, I'll post a photo and write no more. But I'll keep this blog online and alive for the possible interest of her family and friends.

i say "possible" because I have no sense whatever if anyone visits this blog. There was one early comment by a daughter, a very interesting one, but otherwise there is no evudence that anyone else has ever been here. 

In a phone call, a friend of Harriet's told me there are memories and sharing about Harriet on Facebook. I don't do Social Media, and not even this will get me to join. Despite positive aspects, as far as I'm concerned, the main contribution of Social Media has been to give crazy extremists a way to find one another. I am reminded of why poet Lew Welch left the growing hell of Chicago:

"I don't know what you're going to do about it but I know what I'm going to do about it. I'm just going to walk away from it. Maybe a small part of it will die if I'm not around feeding it any more."

Having an audience was never my purpose. I began the blog to help me get through the intense grief of losing my wife. To this end, it's been successfiul.

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  1. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 8:32 AM

    Just letting you know that I do read your blog. Although I only commented once, I have kept up everyday and through your blog, I hear you. And I appreciate you sharing the numerous videos of mom.

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    1. AnonymousMarch 3, 2025 at 9:00 AM

      Thanks for letting me know. Charles

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  2. AnonymousApril 11, 2025 at 6:38 PM

    Former student here. I read your blogs and always appreciated them. You've slowed down, but every few years I poke around and find a new one.

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  3. AnonymousMay 3, 2025 at 8:45 PM

    Charles... I just saw today where Harriet had passed away! I am so sorry.. I know how much you loved her! I haven't talked to you in years but please know I'm thinking about you. Peggy

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    1. Charles DeemerMay 4, 2025 at 1:38 AM

      Really nice to hear from you. Bring me up to date in an email.

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